I took your face and twisted it onto the body of a god, I looked at it there and it was still your face, and so it made me happy
I made you into my own personal project, I wanted to take you apart and put you back together, but I never got my chance I know I must leave the memory of your kiss back behind my eyelids. But I can't stop imagining it.


love this.,

cerrado

life its going in one lane,
my head in so many other directions.
i feel nothing lately.
i keep searching for something im not finding in my self
i on the inside wanna be free and happy.
but im grossed out by my personality and my body
and how i feel about myself.

im thinking of cutting my locks off right now.
well not doing it right now, but soon.
i know i cant let other people ruin it for me
but ive been hearing so much about them lately that
i wish i could just stay in and hibernate..

ive got the unconscious conciousness..
like im here but im not here.
i keep telling myself there are so few.
there are so few.

i wish i was far away watching the stars.
high.

too confused.

i cant even elaborate on what im thinking..
but im stoned, and content.
and life is alright.

there are soo many songs i wish i could just hear right now.
so many lines i wanna hear.

didnt sleep to well, tossed and turned a lot.
felt like so many things just kept on making noise.
im awake now, obviously, with the day half way there.
ive been thinking a lot about this place, i really wanna go to soon..
a place ive only been a time or two.
the images i continue to replay in my head,
the sky is blue, the day is kinda windy, there is a
big hill you have to walk down. til your at the beach with the coolest sand patterns.
(i dont know exactly what they're called)

i feel like i need to be there.
and perhaps draw.
draw emotion, near the ocean..
:)
painting sounds just as good.
like it would be really soothing, and mellow.
even a cool park with a nice view.

last night i thought i had a set perception of love.
then i kinda laughed at myself, cause that could never happen.

sundae.

here i am and all i wanna do is

let this creative side glow..
i am inspired,, ive got a lot of emotion.
cant wait to be outside.
being surounded by so many colors
makes me really happy. ive been having the craziest dreams still.
i laid today and thought for a while, there is so much i wanna do
and i cant let anything stop me from being me. and i dont
wanna keep talking, i really am determined to start doing.
i think i just figured something else out tonight, that makes me
really greatful.
life can be so sudden.

pink flowers,
recommended showers

times just arent the same.
i keep having these dreams
of places ive been to so many times before.
instead of dreams they feel more like
replayed moments that are gone.

case of the mondays.

and cant wait for it to be night time
im turning and learning and yearning for knowledge.
to exercise not only my mind but my body.
i need to run, i need to let it all out.
fall is over, fall over beautiful.
its an imagination, a recreation of ones self image.
im floating in repair.
i am the uninvited.

some fuckin poetry

What are you doing here?
What do you want?
Is it music?
We can play music.
But you want more.
You want something & someone new.
Am I right?
Of course I am.
You want ecstasy
Desire & dreams.
Things not exactly what they seem.
I lead you this way, he pulls that way.
I'm not singing to an imaginary girl.
I'm talking to you, my self.
Let's recreate the world.
The palace of conception is burning.



A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself


If my poetry aims to achieve anything, it's to deliver people from the limited ways in which they see and feel.


Love cannot save you from your own fate.


People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over. Yeah, I guess it is a friend.


There are things known and things unknown and in between are the doors.


-jim morrison

nocturnal

need to make something of my life.
got soo much music in my mind.
with cute faces and places
i need to get high.
feel like flying, i cant find myself
in love with love.
slowly im rising like the sun in the earliest of
mornings.
i cant wait to be sleeping in.
maybe i should drug myself so
i cant feel the cold.

you were the unintended

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love


I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before


First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love


I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before


I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before


Before you

from the bed

the bed that i lay all alone in.
not willing to make it work
not trying to make it worse.
i cant try to not feel what i do
when its inside my heart.
the hurt is there, the sadness doesnt subside.
and you stay in your silent place and
think about how its all my fault.
just because you dont do anything
doesnt mean i should be happy.
i feel like i may be awake doing this all night.
silently crying on the side.
i love him with all the fibers in me.
and his eyes are slowly closing.
im drowning.

my november

it cant be that wrong.
and im sure we all think about it, and feel it at times.
this thing called love has my heart wondering this time.
its too late to even think about anything period.
i wanna be someones world.
where someone is happy to see me, not annoyed at here i am again.
want to be held like im never gonna be let go.
maybe im just getting sick, and feel even more lonely.
ive been stuck to the couch all day, waiting to even have you kiss my face
or come hold my hand.
i feel all displaced right now
cause i love you so.
i want someone to never get enough of me.
it cant be that wrong...

lady luna, find me.

a better place.
a distinct place.
one i only find in the nightime.
i write a lot of periods, because everything is like only one sentence to me
i wanna write, cause i feel like i have a lot of things to say right now
things only come out when they wanna come out, and right now i feel like they are hiding behind something.
but the words are coming out really fast.

how people bask in the sun, is how
i wanna bask in his arms
im addicted to smiling, when i feel like his all.
i like to put myself into my head sometimes id be guilty if i ever said i dont.
its my own secret place inside little me.
a place i drift into and get stuck.
sometimes i feel so found.

i wanna drink fine wine,
and dance underneath the stars
and let inner me out tonight,
im craving some alone time
my mind wants to fly.
first id need a dance partner.

alone flying on a magic carpet ride..
in the stars alone tonight.

birthday girl

having a great birthday.
& falling in love.

ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok

why cant it just be okay?
oh but it is okay..
its all in my head
but at night when i dream and all it feels like
i have is my stella and my mind, my head feels like
the coolest place to be..
im above the surface.
in the clouds, and in the trees.

i like to smile, so wont you stay
with i for a while?

stella was a diver. and she was always down

coming tomorrow!!

5 days

after the laughter, comes tearz.

psychologically yours

please dont let me feel like
i was nothing..
i dont deserve anything from you but please dont lie to me.
i cant get your face out of my mind.
nothing i can find replaces you
and this isnt fucking fair.
when i want you, you dont want me
when you wanted me, i didnt want you.
could we just meet at the right place
so we could be together and live.
happy
everyday waking up and not knowing
is making me feel like im losing you not gaining you.
i dont know how much longer i can do this to myself.
im drowning
im just a girl.

my muse

when youre feeling beautiful will you remember me?


I just want to let you know
My mind refuses to let you go
I wanna hypnotise you so
You will remember me

confrused

distraught and full.
losing myself in every direction that i try to attempt.
i need to get a hold of myself.
im getting lost in the sound.
finding myself at ease in the strangest ways

Cast your eye tears on to me
And I'll show you what you really need
Give too much attention
And I'll reflect your imperfections

caffinated

and im missin
your face.
come back to me and stay in that place.

im jumpin off the walls.

sick

now im sick..
my throat my ears.
soon to be my nose.
i havent slept in almost 3 days.
its not just my heart anymore.

shes lost control II

time and time again.
my heart sinks into my chest.
a quick spit of poety will take me there.

to him, his scent,
everything that he is.
his smile, his voice
i want you
i want your hand.
i miss you babe
yes yes no no




<3 its

#9

just come back come back to me.
theres nothing left to say
theres nothing left to do.
you broke my misery.
come back come back to me.

ashes

she's lost control.

in every aspect.

ive got a broken heart.

each day breaks it more and more.

ive never wanted something soo bad in the world.

ive never loved anyone this way.

life just isnt the same.

i miss you whereever you are.

im here.

please dont stay away too long.

digital bath

tonight i feel like more.
you make the water warm
and you taste foreign

you breathed then you stopped
i breathed then dried you off

you move like i want to
to see the way your eyes do

tonight i feel like more.
like more...


something inside of me
is dying.
i dont know right now what is keeping me breathing

losing our way

if i was a bird i would fly high over the world.

My mind is full bursting overWith all these things I can’t rememberEvery little single memory reminds me of youMy eyes were weary with all these tearsYou left your shadow in my dreamsAnd all my doubts seem to disappear when you came alongFlowers melting up into the skyHear my heart where our love colidesWe hear the songs we found in the times we lost our wayGentle memories replace our tearsAll the love we had is still right hereWe hear the songs we found in the time we lost our wayFrom without words can not describeWhat caused the stars to fall deep insideEvery little single memory reminds me of youOur days are gone lost foreverReflecting light glistening under waterNaturally this could be everything that seems so unrealFlowers melting up into the skyHear my heart where our love colidesWe hear the songs we found in the time we lost our wayGentle memories replace our tearsAll the love we had is still right hereWe hear the songs we found in the time we lost our wayFlowers melting up into the skyHear my heart where our love colidesWe hear the songs we found in the time we lost our wayGentle memories replace our tearsAll the love we had is still right hereWe hear the songs we found in the time we lost our way

surreal

its all so surreal right now.
last day before heading back to san diego.
i dont know what to feel, nervous, anxious.
all of those feelings in one.
but its beautiful here.
but i miss the stars and being able to see them shining so brightly.
which you dont get a lot of living in the city.
-the cool night air is curious.

walking a trail with no end in sight

eh-i cant sleep.
and im never ever awake at this hour.
but i kinda just wanna dance around in my own mind.
to this great song i could listen to over and over.
except right now i feel sick, and dont really wanna move.
but i read that there is no sickness that nature cant cure.
so i smoke some.
and inhale like never before.
while my head travels places never seen, into an abyss
where the air is warm.
i see trees, and colors
red, green, blue, orange.
ive always wanted to be here.
and i never want to leave.
but i cant stay lost in these moments.
nothing lasts forever..
then i breathe.
and open my eyes again
im flying over the world.

barrierbarrierscarrier

cardiac arrest..
ive learned a lot today..
i need to sort through thoughts like i need to sort through clothes,
but i cant.

estomago comiendo estomago

stomach feels like its eating itself.
it does this everyday, then it passes.
it starts making all this corruption and i feel like i cant move for a minute
then it goes away..

trying to make sense of sense.
but i never understand what i write.
or understand very much at all.
i guess im like one who hears what they wanna hear.
(big downfall)

-so im trying to make progress
even though its become a slow progress on changing.
letting inner me out.
but its hard, and i cant think of how to do it without being judged.
even though i dont know who would be judging me, at the same time i feel like its the whole world.

i found words so misplaced last night,
but they make so much sense to me.
sense in the senseless.
understanding in the misunderstood.
those be my type of people, those be my type of words..

stomach still eating stomach

doo da dee dem da deee

thats all ive ever been..
a hider, a seeker, a runner
a finder..
no judgements. but words creep through me even when these eyes are shut
dont know how to speak..
taking this voice for granted everyday, i know how to speak but im not using this voice.
i am a feeler, a thinker, an imaginer..
dreams, visions fill my mind..
lyrics this poetry takes me away..
but my hands could go on..
why cant i write what i feel.
so much expression flows through my veins..
nothing comes out real, or right.

sometimes i wish everyone was in my mood, and feeling my vibes..
i wanna show it all to everyone.
cause its something i think everyone would love..
i feel like there is a lot, im not letting out.
a lot im not showing..
my soul, my body everything feels like a puzzle and
putting the pieces back together.
-i got a semi-journal so maybe now i can write/draw.

music, i drown in it.
its lyrics, its sound.
i love it.
i wanna share that too with everyone.
at what feeling so amazing can be like.
i wanna share everything.
but im scared.
you gotta find the right people to open up to.
i wanna find them.
i gotta let it out.
what everything is making me feel..

-forget the small talk.
i can almost type perfectly without looking and it makes me happy.
cause ive been trying since i was in the fifth grade.
"happy alone.."
thats another thing.
this makes no sense.

and i wanna write in ways that make sense.
-to not just me, but to everyone...

i feel like im running still...
so lay where your laying..
dont make a sound..

palabras y mas palabras

there is so much i always want to write but the moment the chance comes im stumped again. never know what to write, the music makes me feel okay and less nervous. i forget that there are no rules to this. i am free here to make it how i like. man there feels like so much that i miss, but im not sure what. and now and everyday forward i will have him in my head saying to not be scared of anything. not a bad thing. a reminder... i know where i am in this moment and i know i wont forget, the music makes me want to be in the passenger seat with my hair blowing windows down with everything ahead and nothing behind. in a car. free as can be. i wanna feel every emotion. where you have lost your stomach and where you capture a new sense of mind. i never wanted to say that i was running, but yeah ive been in fear. ive been in fear for a while, of just stuff. i dont know how to explain this to anyone who doesnt get my mind. i wanna be in other elements feeling other things. with music. loud as can be.. ugh this makes no sense i feel no better...

ah souls satisfaction

i am so stuck, but i am so clear..
i have music in my ears..
today i feel alone in my head. but really cleansed.
rise up, like the sunrise..
let life be, its beautiful..
i realized today that i have been choking for a really long time.
on misunderstood words or worrying about words out of context.
i am free, i am one. and i can speak..
jah love
im staying focused, everything is clearer..
this sense is brand new.
i think in a subliminal way i am amazed as the indifference this day has brought.
highs and lows.
but in the end i feel amazing.
im smiling, im crying, im praying
and again i feel so blessed.
spirits so high..
being rocked and swept away by music lyric and sound.
and inside i feel as quiet as the night.

natural vibes

jah love, its feeling so natural right now..
thank you for another day..
i feel blessed with everything in my life right now.
i have good people within me and flowing throughout me
but tonight my heart is beating at a steady pace..
and im pretty content.

intwined with the music,
its in my soul.

"exoudus, movement of jah people..."-exodus

my brain is going, im learning and practicing what im trying to stand for more or less.
a new start, a poco a poco..

jah prophet has arise

the worst decisions are the ones made out of fear-

feeling too good to be ah true..

spirits so high
i feel like my insides are lifted.
from the bottomest bottoms
to such great heights.
with just some good words and good vibes.
i cant wait to learn more, read and become who i am on the inside.
and pass along the vibes.
that its ok to be who you are, acceptance is out there but it is you who must accept yourself first..
all great people are along the way of your journey.
my life, my movie, my soundtrack.. my adventure
my story..



(on becoming ital in the food sense)


life is good, ive got air in my lungs,
i need to be my own reminder
of the little things that make life more than worth it.

dreader than dread

why dem say you musn't use de herb

"the more you accept herb, the more you except rastafari"

1

aint wastin no time,
this is what me have ah paid for...
girl flex,