how far does the pedal fall

opening aspirations
completely tongue tied. im living in a daze right now.
so i got lost in a new book
100 years of solitude. sometimes i forget all about reading but
sometimes i feel like it makes me stop thinking.
i like to get lost. i like to get found, where is that happy
medium?
so much seemed clear tonight. and last night.
my skin feels like its burning, and ive got pains all over.
my nose is frozen and it might just fall off.
i painted all night yesterday. it felt amazing, but i dont care too much
for the result...
im laying here in complete silence, thinking of how the scariest thing
happened to me tonight. i cant stop shaking. my hands, my fingers.
i feel like i took bad drugs.
now im watching a curious cat lick his privates.
:)

im feeling like a really determined student this coming semester
i wanna give it my all, and i should, but i know me.
i know how caught up in life i get sometimes..

its my world, its where i go.
its my little place. i usually go there alone.
i was thinking a lot today, like most days
but when i walk, and moments i really stop to realize im living in
make me really wanna watch my movie from the beginning.
the one ive recorded everyday.

ive been really wanting to scrapbook my life.
cause you can be anywhere when youre life begins.
and i believe there is a beauty in all my imperfections,
i wanna reassemble, cause im in this life, and im in deep.