surreal

its all so surreal right now.
last day before heading back to san diego.
i dont know what to feel, nervous, anxious.
all of those feelings in one.
but its beautiful here.
but i miss the stars and being able to see them shining so brightly.
which you dont get a lot of living in the city.
-the cool night air is curious.

walking a trail with no end in sight

eh-i cant sleep.
and im never ever awake at this hour.
but i kinda just wanna dance around in my own mind.
to this great song i could listen to over and over.
except right now i feel sick, and dont really wanna move.
but i read that there is no sickness that nature cant cure.
so i smoke some.
and inhale like never before.
while my head travels places never seen, into an abyss
where the air is warm.
i see trees, and colors
red, green, blue, orange.
ive always wanted to be here.
and i never want to leave.
but i cant stay lost in these moments.
nothing lasts forever..
then i breathe.
and open my eyes again
im flying over the world.

barrierbarrierscarrier

cardiac arrest..
ive learned a lot today..
i need to sort through thoughts like i need to sort through clothes,
but i cant.